I've had a renewed passion for writing!  Well, writing that's not graded.  But yeah, anyways.  So, lately, I've been feeling...different.  Like things have begun to connect in ways they haven't before. 

For example, my writing a novel.  Even if I never publish, or even finish writing it, I feel a sense of accomplishment... Before, I'd never have been able to form the lengthy, detailed paragraphs that I wrote or typed.  Just reading it makes me shiver with the emotions I had at the time.  By the way, I've just started chapter 2, so I do not plan on finishing it anytime soon.  I'd give a preview...but I'd rather not.  I might change it soon...

Another difference is in the way I look at guys.  Yeah yeah, I said something about that back in...December was it?  But now that I'm totally, seriously, fully over Clinton, I've never really had a hard crush on anybody...Until a freshman came into the picture recently.  I'd never noticed him in the hallways, but a few weeks ago I did.  But it's not because he's Asian, but that is nice.  But I had the courage, no, I dared to approach him.  When I had my 10 year crush on Clinton, I would never have voluntarily tried to, you know, converse with him.  I was too afraid of rejection.  But with this guy, I have done exactly what I was afraid to do, even though I was sick with nervousness.  And this morning, I passed him in the hallway, but I did not approach him this time, because his friends were close behind them, but our eyes locked for that instant.  Whether it was good or bad, he at least recognized him.  But most important, it sent a shock of something to my heart.  I never experienced such a thing before.  With Clinton, it was a blush no one could see or avert the eyes, but it was a pleasurable shock.  Mind out of the gutter please.  But it was just...I don't know...I loved it.  I think I like him more than I should for not knowing who he really is, though...

Also, I haven't really had an appetite for hardcore gaming anymore.  For the moment, I'm tiring of it.  It's the same old thing.  You get a quest, you do that quest, then you turn it in for X amount of exp and items, and you repeat the process.  Most of the time you don't  even have to chat with other people, or their just bots.  But I haven't played an MMO in almost a week and a half and have no desire to play one now.  Something hardcore awesome will have to come out soon...

I'm also not feeling anime as much, unless it has something to do with romance.  I don't know why, but it just has to have that in there.  And I'm becoming more sensitive to music.  I shun rap and popular pop at all costs.  But I'm liking rock and metal that have a purpose to be singing to me in the first place.  Instrumental music, such as dance or rock, could have me crying my eyes out, too.  I don't know.  I'm always on the verge of crying, even when it's not meant to be mean or even about me. 

Like right now, lol.  I'm about to watch the last episode of Vampire Knight Guilty and go open the door for my mother to bring in dinner, but I'm tearing up for now reason :P  Maybe I have too many unshed tears.

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Switching gears...
I have a field trip Wednesday~  Hooray!  We're going to a LensCrafter in the mall, eating out somewhere, then going to see the last showing of Coraline in 3D, just because we can.  We'll have to pile in my teacher's Suburban.  I hope it won't be a tight fit.  I get nervous when people are sitting to close too me >.<

So...I hope this year turns out to be a good one...