...I died.

*sobs* Oh well. I wasn't even fighting because I didn't feel like pressing any buttons, lol. However, there is a reason why I feel like I can real the world right now and that is because...after 3 giant cups of coffee, a cup of tea, two apples, two cold croissants, leftover noodles, and a can of ginger ale...I...finished...my EXTENDED ESSAY!!! WHOO! It's shit though. I finished at 2,600 words and was like crap...I need at least 1,000 more so I googled up random scientists as extra evidence and was like yeah...they support my argument, lol. Gawd, now I cannot (yeah...not can't) stop trying to make my sentences longer. It took me 16 straight hours with one hour being my break to play Mabinogi.

Just that feeling...of finishing that thing...it was like I knew how to swim (In reality, I still don't) like I knew I wasn't going to die this time. I pretty much just lived in my room. I even used the water boiler to heat up

This is scaring me...are IB tests supposed to be easy??? I took the first part today for Chem and Design Tech and they were like super easy. I have this really big feeling that I didn't do so well because even though I feel confident and I believe I did well, most of the two questions were narrowed down to two answers where I sat and considered everything I know. I just really hope my judgement was good.

You will not believe how much was lifted off my chest. Hell, I wasn't worried at all before the test, but for some reason after the tests were over, I just felt like partying forever and dancing around. And now...I sit in worry because tomorrow's the second part for both tests so yay. I think I'm just more relaxed and happy this week because there are just so many things to look forward to. Friday is the Robotics social, Saturday is my brother's wedding, Sunday is strawberry picking and Water Country or Busch Gardens (if it's nice and sunny), and Monday is the day us IB Chem kids want to go to the James River to chill and go ahead and do our experiments. So I'm definitely not gonna turn emo this week! Whoo! Unless all said plans f

I'm...not doing so well. No no. I'm fine. My report card is what's not gonna be so good. I assumed that I would at least get a C in every single one of my classes as I spent most of my time trying to get my Calculus grade up to passing. However, that caused all of my other grades to drop. The gayest thing in the world. Four of my classes, I have a 76. That is one friggin point away from a C! Let's see...German, I didn't think that was actually gonna count. I thought it was just a practice for the IB exam but nooo. Calculus, stupid mistakes...again. I thought it was the easiest thing in the world. Pretty much a majority of the people who took it got a C despite saying it was easy as well. History...well let's just say that our entire class has concluded that Mr. Morrison grades our stuff based on his ideal and who he likes. Because seriously...Lauren who studies like crazy in every class gets 92's while someone like Brendan who slacks off gets 98's. Of course...there's me who he probably thinks is an idiot and just decides to give grades in the 70 and 80 range. Then there's Chem. I just slack in that class.

So mainly...my biggest issue is

Due to this sudden realization, I also came to the realization that I am not doing so well. Seriously...I treated this first nine weeks just like my entire year as a sophomore. I just fell asleep in class and BS'd through most of my stuff and got satisfying grades. This year however, grades are not so satisfying. It wasn't until this week that I actually took the energy to pay attention in class and learn EVERYTHING that was being taught and question about anything that was confusing to me. Now I'm scared. IB is really anal about a lot of things and it's about being academic. I'm afraid that it might be too late to try and fix things up for another 9 weeks because I have no idea if the individual quarters are counted. That's why...I'm a scheduling a meeting with my guidance counselor. I KNOW I can do this. I just get so tired and lazy and I'm not really even trying. I'm just so used to putting in the main ideas into my head and using logic to build on those main ideas and teach myself through the brain thus making up logical answers on tests and quizzes. That was BEFORE. I got a little bit of hope though when I got back my German writing "exam